[Thursday June 8th, 2006 at 3:22pm] it just feels better. 2 ♥ Add Comment

[Friday May 26th, 2006 at 8:33pm] meet kiley. my new baby. i got her today when i randomly stopped in crossville to an adoption event. she's really shy, but i think she'll gain my trust soon and will open up. she is precious. 3 ♥ Add Comment

[Thursday May 4th, 2006 at 1:08am] this is my 11:11 -plans -feeling like a weight has been lifted -friendships -middle tennessee -SUMMER. i'm not failing school. i'm doing alright. more than alright considering i never ever ever went to my classes. i'm getting a dog soon. i have to move soon. i'm feeling whole again. omg i'm going to burst. 2 ♥ Add Comment

i'm boooooooooooooored. [Monday May 1st, 2006 at 10:22pm] 1. first car - 97 dodge neon 2. where you grew up - clarksville, TN haha that's a ghost in cville 3. where you live now - Murfreesboro, TN . 4. your name -stephanie dowdy 1974 ms. virginia. 5. your favorite drink - diet coke omg if you know me at all you know my obsession with squirrels 6. your favorite food - chicken and mushroom flavored ramen 7. your favorite song - June 18, 1976 pedro the lion in other news i got my application for the zoo today and spent a FREE afternoon looking at animals. i am now an owner of mtsu booty shorts and i wore them to my computer science exam. haha. i need a new apartment. i now have a bag of oreos and a whole bunch of diet rootbeer. friday i plan on being completely drunk. AFTER MAY 3RD I'M FREE FOR FOUR MONTHS FROM SCHOOL. lets hangout. 3 ♥ Add Comment

[Thursday April 27th, 2006 at 2:39am] so i'm in need for this weekend for various reasons. mainly the reunions that are long overdue. i've been in life waiting mode for a while now. i'm ready to start my life again. hello, i've had it on hold for too long. i worked too hard for this to be it. i made fun of myspace girls tonight. 10 ♥ Add Comment

[Wednesday April 26th, 2006 at 6:34pm] sometimes i wish i was a southern bell. you know that go to those debutant [sp?] balls and have lots of money and i'd have that thick southern lady accent? these are things i think about sometimes. i pretty much want to be blanch from golden girls.. minus the slut part. so today is COLD. i don't know what happend but the weather is super confused and it's making me confused. i wore a jacket and flip-flops today. that's what you do when you are hit with a random cold day. i'm going out of my mind i'm so bored. i miss having people around all the time. girl nights are a must.. but are none existent here these days. long country drives.. happen every so often. GHOST HUNTING... well not so much. seriously. if we have ever been friends in the past and don't talk now.. i forget why so you should too. i want my friends back. distance is lame and we are so much better than that. murfreesboro is sucking me dry. 6 ♥ Add Comment

[Tuesday March 28th, 2006 at 3:38pm] today is beautiful and i can't breath. sinus infections are no fun and i wish the one that is making residence in my head would move along. it's been long enough. no more snot in head. please. Add Comment

[Sunday March 19th, 2006 at 11:17pm] every day i say the samething "i'm going to all my classes" "i'm going to stay busy" "i'm going to do better in school". every day i skip at least one class. i spend the majority of my day sleeping or on the internet. i pass up studying for eating/tv/computer/sleeping. in my head there is nothing to do. nothing worth doing. i need an escape & i'm going to get it. i'm not going back to school next semester. i'm not living here starting july. i am going to search out God with every inch of my being. i am going to get away from everything that has influenced me the past two years and everything that has made my heart turn away. i want to be on the path God wants me to be on. & sometimes that means letting go of familiar surroundings. getting rid of friendly faces. quiting habbits that have formed. little rituals that have taken presidence over what REALLY matters in the long run. i say it everytime. and everytime i backslide because i just don't have the accountability and support i need. it seems i'm alone in a sea of people. we tend to push away people that love us the most because we know we are dissapointing them. i don't like the person i've become. i'm cold hearted. depressed. lazy. selfish. i'm just a shell of what i was. i used to have a fire inside. now i just have nothing. this is for the best. i promise. 2 ♥ Add Comment

[Sunday March 19th, 2006 at 1:13pm] well i woke up this morning. that has to be something good , right? 4 ♥ Add Comment

[Saturday March 18th, 2006 at 11:51pm] Concentrate Don't you know These are the days that leave you empty They're leaving you cold And say to me As we grow old These are the days that last forever Never let it go we all need a start over. we all need a vacation. let go let go let go. we all let go of people/things. i'm in the mood to get away. i am soon. very soon. i have a secret about my future. Add Comment

[Thursday March 16th, 2006 at 1:11pm] i can't find my battery charger for my camera and it is killing me! it's so pretty outside. i have to work until 11 tonight and i need to be in knoxville by tomorrow morning so i can pick up my bride's maid dress and get some shoes. i've been trying to tan, since this dress is a really bright blue. but i don't think my colour is going anywhere... still a bit pasty. but i'm just going to keep going until the wedding. i get my hair and makeup done by a proffessional! fun stuff. i'm trying to lose some weight. between birth control and quiting smoking... eating has become my new hobby. after i finish this thing of deli turkey for sandwiches i'm going back to no meat. i'm thinking about no eggs or dairy as well. cheese is so horrible for you anyways. so beth is new york and i'm insanely jealous! but i'll be up there soon enough. i want to visit the grand canyon. and grow out my hair. and ride horses. my brain is everywhere!!! and i want to play basketball!!!!!!!!!!!! today is beautiful. 2 ♥ Add Comment

[Wednesday March 15th, 2006 at 9:38pm] we all have these feelings of passion that run through our veins from time to time. right now my heart is pounding and i feel light and excited. i just wish i knew why. i want a humble existance. nothing fancy. i just want the opportunity to live my life the way i want to. i see bright blue skies and deep green grass. i see small children in summer clothes and lawn chairs filled with close friends. i see myself rushing around taking care of everything and everyone. i see myself climbing into a bed i share with someone i love&loves me, and kissing goodnight. i smell flowers and freshly cut grass. i need more light & less darkness. i need more positive & less negative. more love & less hate. more forgiveness. absolute forgiveness. i'm counting on people to be there even when they don't know i'm expecting them to be. or maybe they do. maybe they knew all along? maybe they still know? i need more books to read. anything. i've been living in fantasy land by reading way too many books of all kinds. i'm not close minded when it comes to printed stories. i give everything a chance. anything is worth reading at least once if someone actually had the patience and guts to spill their heart & head contents into print. that's why i'm hoping you write your books. that's why i'm hoping i write my stories. 4 ♥ Add Comment

015 [Wednesday February 22nd, 2006 at 10:28am] I MISSED MY MEDIA CLASS BECAUSE MY PHONE WAS ON MANNER MODE. seriously i should just quit this thing called life.. 3 ♥ Add Comment

014 [Tuesday February 21st, 2006 at 10:19pm] sometimes things just shut down. sometimes people do too. i want everything to be different. i want to be different. my heart is full of love and good intentions. my mouth is full of hate and jealousy. i don't want to do anything lately. i'd rather sleep. or daydream of better things/days. i'm stuck stuck stuck. i want to be free free free. i'm watching a show about hammerhead sharks. 1 ♥ Add Comment

[Wednesday February 15th, 2006 at 6:50pm] i want to live a fast paced life where i get to solve problems. i want to be relied on. and i want to be under pressure. i want to be known. i want to pretend. honestly ... i want to act. silly?? i've spent my whole life pretending and spent all of highschool only doing drama related things. but now i'm scared. i need to grow out my hair. i need to dye it back to something more natural. i need to lose weight. i need to go to class. i need a passion. i need direction. blah blah blah!!!!!!!!!!! i also want to marry isaac mizrahi. 2 ♥ Add Comment

013 [Wednesday February 15th, 2006 at 3:10am] i had a good weekend. some people came over and we laughed and laughed friday night. saturday we had a sleepover. sunday i got these.... monday my dog got his balls cut off. tuesday i laughed and laughed. my valentine isn't here, but i see him friday. you should go to exit/in on friday and go watch cassino. 1 ♥ Add Comment

[Thursday February 9th, 2006 at 2:39am] i'm updating a lot. I NEED POP PUNK BANDS. WHAT DID YOU LISTEN TO IN HIGHSCHOOL?? 12 ♥ Add Comment

012 [Thursday February 9th, 2006 at 12:01am] FRIDAY NIGHT. COME TO MURFREESBORO TO MY APARTMENT AND WATCH BOTH THE "SAW" MOVIES. DRESS UP LIKE A DEAD PERSON. Add Comment

011 [Wednesday February 8th, 2006 at 10:50pm] FUCK SANTINO I LOVE YOU NICK 11 ♥ Add Comment

010 [Wednesday February 8th, 2006 at 1:28pm] so in the last two days i have managed to... spend too much money. seriously fall in love with sandra o. have the apartment almost burn down. had a hula hoop contest and lost. start my period and feel like crap. listen to my neighbors fight for real this time. wake up to blood all over my neighbor's porch. become an amazing cook/baker. laugh my ass off. see a dead body. watch the weirdest movie ever. fail a test. pass a test. been ready to beat two girls up at school. daydream about a lot of mermaids. cry uncontrolably to my boyfriend. be completely content with circumstances. ( 100 questions ) Add Comment

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